Home. The comfort of the word wraps me up in a warm blanket and rocks me to sleep. There’s a beautiful thing about being home. Always feeling taken care of. Constantly knowing that there’s someone close by to come help you out if you’re in need. The little things, like seeing familiar faces at the grocery store, grabbing lunch with a girlfriend to catch up, not needing a GPS to get from one place to another. And even bigger things like being able to drive down the road and see family whenever I choose, knowing where is safe to be, and where isn’t, having a network of people willing to come paint with me every single Monday night. If that isn’t comfort, then I don’t know what is.
It pulls at something deep inside of me when I begin to feel this blanket of comfort coming over me… My inner voice is telling me, as it has in the past, that there is still so much more to do. I have this light inside, and its yearning to express itself. This last year has done that for me in so many ways. I have challenged myself to get by on very little money, and to discover new ways of creating a living with my art. I have made myself extremely uncomfortable by teaching painting classes, and by taking on painting projects I didn’t feel quite ready to do, and have grown tremendously from it. I think that’s the key… You don’t have to feel ready to do something… In fact, you’ll get much more growth from it if you don’t feel ready. But feeling ready is usually what we wait for in order to make a move. Instead, I’m on a conscious path of looking further than that. The moment I lose the discomfort, and find myself getting cozy, I know that I must move forward.
I am craving challenge, newness, and experience. I need it to keep me feeling alive. I need it in order to grow.
I must take the next step to continue my journey…
March 1st, Dalton and I will be packing whatever we can fit in the car, and heading west. We will begin in Colorado, and possibly Arizona and California to follow. We will have the luxury of staying with a generous and absolutely amazing couple near Boulder, CO. to begin. As of now, we will be staying there for a few months and using this time to unplug a bit. I plan to spend more time outside, reconnecting with the Earth, the sun, and myself. I will continue to write blogs, and create art in whatever way that I can.
The lack of control that I will have while traveling and staying somewhere new, makes me nervous and uncomfortable, and that itself is exciting. I know that by getting out of my usual routine, and my comfort zone, I will be forced to let go of the control that we are all so used to having. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still squeezing every last drop of love out of my paint classes, my home studio, and the convenience of being home. But, I am ready for a challenge, and I am ready to let go of my comfort once again. It is always bittersweet to be far from family and friends, but I know that the best thing for all of my relationships in life, is to first fully build the most important relationship of all… my relationship with myself.
I’m so eager to explore and experience what the world has to offer, and more importantly, I can’t wait to show what I can offer in return.
Although I won’t be taking any custom orders as of now, and my painting classes will be discontinued until further notice, I hope to continue to build and maintain this wonderful community that has developed over the last year or so around my art, health, transformation, healing and creativity in general. As I said in my last post, I am so ridiculously thankful for each and every one of you, and I appreciate the freedom you’ve given me throughout this time of my life.
In addition to more walking, more sunshine, more nutrients, yoga and meditation, I will be working on a few larger projects that I am extremely excited to share with you. These projects will allow me to connect with all of you, grow my tribe of like-minded people, while also allowing me to share my creativity in an entirely new way. More details coming soon:)
I have two paint classes that remain and would love to see you there…
Monday, February 22nd at Giovanni’s
Saturday, February 27th at Harlem High School
In addition to paint class on Saturday, February 27th, at Harlem High School, I will have a booth filled with original artwork for sale. Please stop by, say hello, paint with me, and take home a piece of my art if you choose.
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